Very sick

I skipped school today was in too much pain and I go to the heart doctor tomorrow my feet are pooling blood and swelling to 2X the size. why the hell cant i just be called physically disabled already im on 5 pain pills steroids and blood thinners...i passed out for 14 hours today im honestly starting to hope they have to amputate my foot i just can not take this pain and the stress of school has made it impossible to eat anything with out feeling like im about to puke after i eat...